Wednesday, April 30, 2003

School is DONE!!

WOOT!! WOOT!! WOOT!!

(in the voice of the teen girl squad from Strong Bad's email...)

:)

Monday, April 28, 2003

"I have hope in His grace and lovingkindness, His tender mercies. He knows that I am from dust. And I rejoice in His unflinching, unfailing goodness. I was confronted (happily) with thoughts of the beauty and vastness of our universe as well as the infinity of universes of which we have no knowledge. This God Who made it and them - this God is my God. The only true God. This God is the One Who gave Himself to die to set me free so I may live with and enjoy Him forever...This God is my God...I have nothing to fear. Hallelujah."

-Jen

Thanks for that Jen. It's comforting to me during these perilous days of finals...

I will write more when I finish this stupid project.

Saturday, April 26, 2003

My blog is so BORING! Any suggestions?

Friday, April 25, 2003

I just walked out of the last English class I plan on ever entering. Hallelujah...

Anyway, this means there are only two things left to accomplish, my simple map I have to draw, and the stupid statics exam I have to take next Wednesday (and no, I don't mean statistics).

All is well with me. I think I'm finally getting better, which is always a good thing. You know what this means... ORANGE MOCHA FRAPPUCCINOS!!!

Just kidding. I've never even had one, but they sound good. You know what is good? Mocha coconut frappuccinos. They taste like those little Samoa girl scout cookies.. Mmm... Pure goodness...

So I was standing at the gas pump this morning, and I was just minding my own business, inserting my card with one hand and pulling out the pump with the other hand, when a surprise sneeze attacks me! What happened? You guessed it, snot... SNOT! EVERYWHERE!! With no where to go but all over my FACE (my hands were occupied). We all get up in the morning and look in the mirror, spend some time getting our hair in decent order (or perfect disorder, it's called the messy look), try to match an outfit, and then it's all in ruins, covered with a pile of snot... That hasn't happened in a LONG time... At that point I just wiped it on my jeans blatantly, I didn't really care anymore. I figure, if your image is compromised, run it into the ground! It was fun. I laughed supremely at myself... YESSSS! EMBARASSMENT!

That's enough for now.



Wednesday, April 23, 2003

Man, I'm writing a lot today.

I forgot to tell you about Fort Lauderdale. Well, we went the weekend before last (Audrey, My cousin, Me) and stayed at Nick's again. We had a pretty good time, watched a few movies, went out friday and saturday nights, just hung out. I had some fire buffalo wings too. Actually, they were mild, and I thought my face was going to fall off. Also, my cousin downloaded this thing called NesTron from his website and we played a few video games to pass the time when things were slow. Man, he's a genius, he made all that stuff.

Sunday was ok... The message was good in the morning, and lunch was decent. After lunch things were better though. We all went to Nick's place with the Assads (Audrey, Jean-Paul, and Philip) and watched parts of some movies and played a cool video game that I can't remember the name of. The highlight though, has to be when Audrey sang us some songs she wrote with her piano skills. She has the most beautiful voice I've ever heard, and that's not an exaggeration. Thanks, Audrey.

Ok, I really should get going.

Be thankful in everything, for this is God's will concerning you in His son Christ Jesus.
My brother's girlfriend is pregnant, possibly with twins! As exciting as this is, he now has an ex-wife, a daughter with his ex-wife (his ex also has a 13 year old son), a live in girlfriend who has two teenage daughters, and a baby on the way (maybe two). It may help you to know that his ex is in Texas, and he lives with his girlfriend in Kentucky.

We are so different... I love him.
Yeah, so my roommate is a little cooler than I thought. We worked a few things out, and it turns out, he is kind of uncomfortable and is leaving in a few months anyway.

Good deal.

Now my cousin can have that room when he moves down here, and until then, I will have my roommate in there, helping with bills. For some reason, that's all I have to say about that... I can't think of anything else I guess.
Ugh...

I just exited my last test before finals, and just for a perfect record, my tests have successively been the hardest tests I've ever taken, each one harder than the last. As it looks, I'll be taking statics again next semester and with any luck, I'll graduate in like 2027.

Man this sucks...

Anyway, it's great that it is over. Now I have nothing to do until tomorrow. I am really happy to see this semester go, but I'm sad that I still haven't changed all that much as far as studying and going to class. I even live next to campus now, and I think I go to class even less than I used to! Maybe that's just the side-effect from the hopelessness accumulated the past few months of not studying.

I'm taking classes this summer, both of which I've already taken before, but got crappy grades in, so that should be both fun and easy.

Right now I'm just winding down from the tension and sitting here in the library. When I walked out of the bathroom a minute ago, the guy right in front of me was kind of holding the door for me. Needless to say, we both felt awkward, so I silently declined and he went on his way. Is that weird? I could tell we were in the same boat; I also like to hold the door for whoever is near me, but in the men's room? I think that's subjective but a little risky...

I'll write more in a sec...

Monday, April 21, 2003

Well, I was going to sleep, when I happened to read Mic's blog.

I have to say Mic, that's not too personal, in my opinion. I have felt the same before, and I have certainly felt that way recently. I remember a post on my old site where I said that I want to be so many things to so many people, while the truth was, I would have been satisfied if even one of them were true. I still want to be someone's best man. My brother didn't even invite me to his wedding. I still want a best friend, and it's weird that you wrote the whole thing about calling you first with the news, because I vaguely recall a similar plea from my own troubled spirit a while back...

I'm not saying any of this just to attempt to fix your problems, but just to tell you that everyone (or at least I) feels the way you do at a point. Until you get through depression, until you reach the promised land (the abundant life), God will break you and shape you. The reason you go through stuff like this is so that you can see God's love. Hear me out. I know you can't feel it, but at least you know it is there. Knowing this, that we are daily being confromed to the image of His son, you must realize that as the days and the earth wax worse and worse, you are growing and flourishing in the Lord despite your feelings. He has saved you from so much, Michaela, and already knows your beginning and end. He knows exactly what to do to fix your circumstance and will most certainly fit you for whatever ministry He will call you to. He is faithful and will certainly do this.
Oh, and on a totally unrelated note, I'm sick (with the symptoms of SARS)... *sigh* always the life-threatening illnesses... Oh, and I blame my roommate, because I can...

Well, I've GOT to get to bed... Tomorrow I'll try to connect the scanner and hook you guys up with some pics... Stay tuned!
Okay, well it's about 1:34AM now, and unfortunately, I'm still obligated to a little 3000 word essay due tomorrow morning. But somehow, when I plan to skip all my classes tomorrow regardless, everything seems to be okay, no worries that is.

Don't worry, the guy's a pushover. I'll do it and just email it to him around 5 pm...
Time: 12:50AM.
Feeling: pretty tired.
Obligations: an English paper... ugh...
Anything else: nope

I've been contemplating what I should write, now that it's been two weeks since my last post...

I have been living in this place for two weeks now and I've never felt so dettached from myself. And who is this weirdo that I live with? It's not that he's weird persay... It's just that I let him move in here the day after I met him (known through a mutual friend) and I don't know exactly how much I trust the guy. Although, that's a story I'll leave untold. Anyway, I can't tell him to move out, so I'm stuck in a strange place with a new person (or vice-versa), not to mention that I feel so far from everyone at church for whatever reason (probably because I have missed so many meetings lately). These gaps are becoming more treacherous and it all seems burry to me.

Thankfully, I know the love of God, and I know he fills my cup until it overflows. The fullness of joy is always near because of his love. He has searched me and he knows of my ways, yet still his delights are in me. Most importantly, He is with me wherever I step.

When friends seem scarce, and temporal things are fleeting, it's good to know that the Lord Jesus never fails... He's with me always, even unto the end of time.

Rejoice evermore.




Monday, April 07, 2003

"I can't wait for the day that I'm walking around grounds, and all of a sudden a whole crowd of people around me just breaks out in song and dance like in the movies. My only hope is that I too suddenly have the knowledge of the choreography for the song, so that I may also join in the banter and the joyful glee..."

This is from Smitty. I have to say Smitty, that's the funniest thing I've read all week, and you have some pretty stiff competition from fallonfey.com and homestar of course. Anyway, you guys should really check out his site to the left.

Right now I'm at the library (as usual) and I'm supposed to be typing up an annotated bibliography for my last paper in English. We are supposed to come up with something controversial and write a persuasive essay on it. My topic is creationism in the classroom. I guess one of the main focuses is how evolution is not really science and how the history of science shows that human theories cannot usually be trusted (e.g. spontaneous generation, the earth being the center of the universe, the earth being flat). What makes people think that the "science" we have today is correct? Somehow, it's become more sophisticated or more precise through human efforts? I don't think so.

I'm sure you care about all that :)

I'm moving tomorrow, which means I have to bag things up today and get them ready for moving. It works out great because tomorrow is my day off and I don't really have to study for anything because my next test is not until the end of the month. I can't wait to move into my new place... And when I get a job, I'll get a digital camera and post some pics; I intend on making this place awesome.

Thursday, April 03, 2003

I'm coocoo for cocoa puffs.

Wednesday, April 02, 2003

I'm sitting here.

I refuse to do my homework (Mic syndrome) and I refuse to leave this chair... for ANYTHING.

I'm still in my church clothes, and I'm actually at Audrey's house right now. We're supposed to be studying, but I'm just messing around on the computer while she does something productive (see line 2).

I'm not sure if this story is worth telling to people who don't know the person involved, but we'll see.

My friend Sarah has this friend, Meredith, who has this really weird roommate (they go to FSU in Tallahassee). Anyway, this girl apparently had never seen a pine cone until she was in 7th grade. This astonished her so much that she actually started collecting pine cones, which is pretty darn weird, even for me. But since grade 7, she still has only collected 6 pine cones!

Naturally, I thought that was hysterical. But when Sarah first said pine cone, she typed it as one word "pinecone" (which may be correct, who knows...) and I read it as "pin-uh-co-nee" and so I laughed because I thought she was trying to spell Pinnochio.

Well anyway, not much else happened, I sign my lease in just 14 hours baby! Oh yeah, Uh huh, Go me, It's muh birfday...

There. That's all I got.
Is it possible for Listerine to go bad sitting in its bottle? I don't see how it could, it's whole purpose is to kill germs and bad stuff, so wouldn't the inside of the bottle be like some oasis of cleanliness? Or is it possible for some germ invasion to overpower the Listerine and set up it's own fortress of gross?

What about crutons? Do crutons get stale? If so, wouldn't that just make them better crutons? I thought they were just flavored, stale bread.

DIscuss.
Perchance hee for whom the Bell tolls, may be so ill, as that he knowes not it tolls for him; And perchance I may think my selfe so much better than I am, as that they who are about mee, and see my state, may have cause it to toll for mee, and I know not that. The Church is Catholike, universall, so are all her Actions; All that she does, belongs to all. When she baptizes a child, that action concerns mee; for that child is thereby connected to that Head which is my Head too, and engraffed into that body, whereof I am a member. And when she buries a Man, that action concerns me: All mankinde is of one Author, and is one volume; when one Man dies, one Chapter is not torne out of the booke, but translated into a better language; and every Chapter must be so translated by age, some sicknesse, some warre, some by justice, but Gods hand is in every translation; and his hand shall binde up all our scattered leaves againe, for that Librarie where every booke shall lie open to one another: As therefore the Bell that rings to a Sermon, calls not upon the Preacher onely, but upon the Congregation to come; so this Bell calls us all: but how much more mee, who am brought so neere the doore by this sicknesse. There was a contention as farre as a suite, (in which both pietie and dignitie, religion, and estimation, were mingled) which of the religious Orders should ring to praiers first in the Morning; and it was determined, that they should ring first that rose earliest. If we understand aright the dignitie of the Bell that tolls for our evening prayer, wee would bee glad to make it ours, by rising early, in that application, that it might bee ours, as wel as his, whose indeed it is. The Bell doth toll for him that thinkes it doth; and though it intermit againe, yet from that minute that that occasion wrought upon him, hee is united to God. Who casts not up his Eye from a Comet when it breaks out? Who bends not his eare to any bell, which upon any occasion rings? but who can remove it from that bell, which is passing a peace of himselfe out of this world? No man is an iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peace of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea, as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; anykinde; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; It tolls for thee. Neither can we call this a begging of miserable enough for our selves, but must fetch in more from the next house, in taking upon us the Miserie of our Neighbours. Truly it were an excusable covetousness if wee did; for affliction is a treasure in bullion, or in a wedge of gold, and have none coined into currant Monies, his treasure in the nature of it, but it is not currant money in the use of it, except wee get nearer and nearer our home, Heaven, by it. Another man may be sicke too, and sick to death, and this affliction may lie in his bowels, as gold in Mine, and be of no use to him; but this bell, that tells me of his great affliction, digs out, and applies that gold to mee; if by this consideration of anothers danger, I take mine owne into contemplation, and so secure my selfe, by making my recourse to my God, who is our onely securitie.
-John Donne

What do you think about this?
Batter my heart, three person'd God; for, you
As yet but knocke, breathe, shine, and seeke to mend;
That I may rise, and stand, o'erthrow mee, 'and bend
Your force, to breake, blowe, burn and make me new.
I, like a usurpt towne, to'another due,
Labour to'admit you, but Oh, to no end,
Reason your viceroy in mee, mee should defend,
But is captiv'd, and proves weake or untrue.
Yet dearly'I love you,' and would be loved faine,
But am betroth'd unto your enemie:
Divorce mee, 'untie, or break that knot againe,
Take mee to you, imprison mee, for I
Except you'enthrall mee, never shall be free,
Nor ever chaste, except you ravish mee.

-John Donne