Sometimes, when I'm not too busy and things aren't happening, I become aware that every minute, as it passes, will never be here again. It's 6:35 pm on August 30th, 2003, and it will never be that again. Ever. Am I the only one that's a little freaked out at this? Seize the day folks, seize the day.

In the process of cleaning my room, I found some old stuff I hadn't seen in a while, some prayers I had written, some old Calculus homework, some philosophy notes, essay drafts, and a lot of doodles I had drawn from all of my boring classes, such as... all of them. I tell ya folks, engineering is dry stuff.

On another topic, people are so funny. I love them. We are made to have relationships and I for one think people are and interesting creation. It's so sad though that we can say things about people in total disreguard for them. That we can gossip and shred someone's character and not even care. I think it's something that we can make a greater effort to prevent so that we can be closer in fellowship to them.

I went to Borders with Junior today and skimmed through a book called 100 Careers in Film and Television. I'm trying to find the quote that I wanted to post here, because it describes me a lot. Basically, it says that if you just think you might want to try out "the directing thing" you should go home, and do something else. But if you can't imagine yourself doing anything else, than you can do it.

I can't imagine myself doing anything else, and frankly, my desire to do this is reaching beyond NYU, and I see myself, no matter how long it takes, making movies one day.

I added a few film links to the left, the coolest of which (in my opinion) the Cannes film festival link (pronounced "kahn" for normal folk, or "cans" if your name is Jen). One day I'll be able to do that...

Great news everyone! I have a semi-tan.

Tonight I'm going to see a movie, though I'm not sure which one I want to go see. Sigh. Then we're going over to Avril's house because Audrey and Alexis are housesitting for her. I love going over there; they have the coolest stuff, and tons and tons of CDs. There's also this really cool, old baby grand piano, not that I can play it, but I like messing around on it. Today I made some progress with this awesome chord progression. I'm trying to figure out some cool right hand part for it, so I've just been messing around with it and playing the left hand part over and over.

Anyway, I'm planning a trip to Fort Lauderdale September 13th, and I think I've got the 4 us all set to go. That should be fun. I haven't been down there in a while.

Ok gang, this is where I wrap it up, and where you leave a cool and informative comment that will make me happy. Thanks yo.

Recommended song of the day: "Fool On the Hill/Nature Boy" & "Come Live Your Life With Me" by Peter Cincotti. The first one is better though.

It's Tuesday, and I have nothing to do. Maybe I should go fill out some more useless job applications, or maybe I won't.

Oh and about my previous post: It's not about anyone and it's something that I think I should have not said. It became a statement more of a hypothetical sense than reality. I really don't think that I've met the person I'm going to marry yet, which is kind of exciting. I can't wait to see her for the first time.

I read two short stories by Poe last night, both being disturbing and one being kind of confusing.

The first one was called "The Oval Painting" or maybe it said picture and not painting... Anyway, it was about this painting that the subject finds and when he reads about it, he discovers that the woman in the picture was dead when she was painted by her husband who loved painting more than he loved her.

The other one was called "A Predicament"... Very strange. It was about this woman who was obviously psycho and had a 5 inch poodle that she walked and a 3 foot "nigger" (sorry, that's what the story said). It was quite plain that neither existed and the woman was just crazy. Anyhow, she went up to the inside of this clock and stuck her head out of the "keyhole" in the face. She was just looking around at the town when the minute hand came down and pinned her neck, and she couldn't get her head back out. It kept going and going and she called for her nigger and her dog, but the nigger was mad at her for calling him names, and the dog was in the corner as the lady told her. Her eyes popped out one by one and eventually her head fell off, but she was still alive somehow. She said that she wouldn't miss the head much because it caused her much embarassment and confusion. I guess it was at that point that I realized the whole thing was pretty sad because the lady knew she was crazy, unless I'm misinterpretting the story.

So anyway, that was the highlight of my day yesterday.

Oh, and I also went sailing yesterday, kind of fun, kind of overrated, but I'm glad I went anyway.

I'm sorry I didn't say "hi" this morning.

It's just that when I see your face, it makes my heart sick and my stomach fail. You cause my words to flee, and "hi" becomes too complicated...

And I want you to know that I really love you.

Oh man...

I went to the Dali museum here in St Petersburg today, and hung out with my friends Dave and Erin.

Unfortunately for me, they brought a friend named Krista who knows all things under the sun (i.e. don't bother stating your opinion on ANYTHING around her). I soon noticed that everything she said was a response to what another one said... And her comments always started with "Actually..." or "Not necessarily." or something like that. I just wanted to say, "Hi, I'm sorry, I know we just met, but is it OK that you are already the most annoying and pompous person I've ever met?"

Do girls think that it's attractive to look like they know everything? I mean I'm not saying I like dumb girls. Not at all, quite the contrary. But the Bible says clearly to not let your praise come from your own lips. How annoying.

Anyway, Dali is amazing, and WAY better of an artist than I thought before. He has a few that really strike me. But then he has the more cynical themes in some of them, and they can get quite distrubing. Regardless, he's definitely a master.

" . . . I wish you to know that you have been the last dream of my soul. In my degradation I have not been so degraded but that the sight of you with your father, and of this home made such a home by you, has stirred old shadows that I thought had died out of me. Since I knew you, I have been troubled by a remorse that I thought would never reproach me again, and have heard whispers from old voices impelling me upward, that I thought were silent for ever. I have had unformed ideas of striving afresh, beginning anew, shaking off sloth and sensuality, and fighting out the abandoned fight. A dream, all a dream, that ends in nothing, and leaves the sleeper where he lay down, but I wish you to know that you inspired it."

-Charles Dickens, A Tale of Two Cities

Lately I've been pretty persistent with the rotation of CD's I listen to, which is usually not the case. And the fact that I actually listen to more than one song on a CD at a time is also new. Usually, I listen to one song at the most - a lot of times I don't even finish the song - and then crave the sound of another CD.

This week's rotation includes:

1. Nickle Creek - This Side
2. Beethoven - My 3 sonatas
3. Millencolin - Pennybridge Pioneers
4. Various Artists - City on a Hill - Sing Alleluja

Anyway, that bit of info brought to you by the random nature of Matt's mind.

Because I didn't want to spend $3 on a daily parking pass, and I didn't want to walk to school today, I drove all the way to the library here on Bearss Avenue to check my email. The only thing is, they have so many restrictions on these computers that I had to sit here for like 30 minutes trying to find links from the one website that they let me go to, to other sites that would eventually lead me to yahoo or google, where I could access any other website.

This became more or less a game, so I didn't really mind.

Anyway, my cousin is probably in Virginia right now, unpacking or something, possibly meeting a roommate for the first time. I'm really happy he has the chance to go to such a prestigeous school as Virginia Tech. But it's not really a shocker, as it became obvious at a young age that he is a genius. He came and visited about three months ago and we hung out and did tons of stuff (like go to the beach, swim at the beach, surf at the beach, and get a tan... at the beach...). It was great. You should come down again, Josh. Sooner than later, ya know?

Alas, I must leave, maybe go to Barnes & Noble for my weekly "browse". I'll let you know how it went.

Last year, my roommate, Junior, bought the extended version of "The Fellowship of the Rings", which is by far one of the best movies ever created, from start to finish. Included in the package were the movie, and several (by several I mean about 4 hours worth) documentaries on the production of the film.

It's so amazing to see what they did to prepare for this epic film. From story boards, to small scale production, to finished product, they spent a heck of a lot of time and detail in creating the exact world that they required. Then there was New Zealand itself. Stunning... You know, once upon a time I was planning a trip down there with Meg. I still intend on going some day, because I never fail to hear praise of the country form those who have visited.

So that's a weak update for those of you who are desperately craving to see what's new in my life and will stop at nothing to hear what I have to say about things. For you, I am sorry. Why so short? Because there is NOTHING new in my life.

Well, Monday night Junior said I looked like Jason Priestley, which is really quite laughable since he is shorter, with blonde hair, blue eyes, and dimples. Then he changed his opinion to Matt looks like someone from that show, 90210. Then, after we went through all the possibilities of who I could look like, he said that maybe I just had that privileged, white-boy look that would fit on a show almost like that. So I went from lookling like cousin Jason, to looking like I could play an extra on a TV show that somehow resembles a show that was cancelled a long time ago.

Didn't they have a reunion a few days ago? Darn, I missed it.

Last night was pretty fun. It's been a while since the whole gang got together, so I had a good time.

I really have nothing to post right now, so I'm just going to end it here. Oh, and why don't people leave comments like they used to??

In other news:

No that isn't the worst picture ever taken of me, believe it or not. I don't actually remember being in it, but such is life.

There I am.

I watched Tomb Raider last night, unfortunately. Yeah, it's as stupid as the orginal, which was pretty much expected.

Anyway, I'm going in for an interview at Bennigan's today, and I'm putting in other applications today as well, just to see what turns up. I plan to have two jobs if possible, so we'll see.

Jen is teaching right now. This is her first day of teaching, and I can't wait to hear how it went. I'm going to leave it at that because I'm not sure if she has reservations about her life appearing in my blog... :)

Junior lives with me now and we've been having a blast!! Ok, well not a blast, but he's a cool guy. He's been hanging out with me and Dave pretty much everyday for a while now. Dave's cool. I've been hanging out with him at least 6 days a week for the past several months. Who knew? I pretty much assumed that hanging out with someone that much meant disaster to the relationship, but we are still happy to hang out and talk and go places, just like the first week. That probably started that weekend I went to West Palm Beach with him (thanks again for driving, Dave).

Well, I'm off to my house where I shall call Bennigan's and see what the deal is. Then I have to mail some stuff I should have done like 5 weeks ago... (!)

Oh, and I updated my entry from August 3rd, which might be helpful to some.

Drink your Ovaltine®.

Well the birthday was a little less painful than I expected. I'm 20.

In celebration, I bought myself 2 CDs, a Beethoven CD with my favorite three sonatas on it (Appassionata, Pathetique, and Moonlight) and my very first Chopin CD, with the prelude called "raindrops", and a nocturne I love.

I'll be back soon to tell you more.

I'm an idiot.

:)

So I went to Hard Rock Cafe yesterday for my birthday. That was pretty fun, I mean relatively. I had a good time, but it was so late when we got out of the restaurant that we didn't have much time to do anything else. Oh well, I'm glad we went.

And with that, I'll be 20 tomorrow... I have about 25 hours left of being a teenager, and I'm recapping everything in my head of what has happened in the past 7 years. Overall, it's pretty amazing how naive I can be. So many issues have been affected by my naivity. I thought my family would always be the good one, not affected by anything, much less adultery. I thought my brother was actually saved like he said. I thought for sure that if I offered my heart, it would be taken. And now, I'm going into the next decade, the third section of my life, and I hope at the end of this one, I won't strive and fail, just to be disappointed. I hope my loves and aspirations are placed appropriately and that I am not ashamed of myself before the Lord as I have been. That is, Lord willing, if I should make it to 30.

Hey guys, one more addition for now, I added my site to this group called "blogs4god.com" and I have a voting thing at the bottom where you can rate my blog. Make sure you vote!